[words on Spencer Madsen’s A Million Little Bears]
the internet allows ppl to post pretty much anything they want
I got bored & started writing abt the books I read (the ones I like or love)
I rly hope nobody takes these serious as ‘reviews’ in any ‘academic’ or ‘official’ sense of the word
so I think I’ll start calling these ‘words on…’ rather than ‘re-views’
so ppl don’t get the wrong idea
anyways I just re-read this book
I read it in one sitting on a bus
that’s what I like abt this book
you can read it in one sitting on a bus
the title ‘a million bears’ seems ‘absurd’
but I think spencer knows that
I personally like ‘absurd’
I am still trying to ‘figure out’ how I ‘feel’ abt this title
I feel like spencer madsen is respected in the alt-lit game
he seems to be a trend-setter
I love spencer’s lack of pretense
sometimes his poems feel like ‘tweet’-like language
humorous & honest & pithy
he has interspersed tweets or psuedo-tweets from 50 Cent & Kanye West throughout the book
these rapper tweets feel gimmicky (obviously?), despite their humor
I am not necessarily saying this is a bad thing
his font changes sizes
I like this
he seems to be concerned, like several other writers today, in presenting a book that one can open at chance & read the page they have turned to without needing context
I rly enjoy this quality in a book
in this book
spencer seems pretty sad
& sometimes I wonder if that’s an ‘act’ or ‘reality’
it’s probably a bit of both, or maybe it’s neither
some of his lines very much resonate w/ me & make me want to return to them
& though I enjoy his ‘poems’ abt ‘lost’ or ‘unrequited’ love, I like when he breaks out of this mode perhaps more than when he remains in it
ppl like spencer madsen seem to be concerned w/ removing the ‘preciousness’ often associated w/ poetry from his ‘poems’
my favorite moments from the book:
'i want to be like people who dont know i want to be like / them'
'there is a reason for why i feel weird / but the reason is why i feel weird / so i dont want to think about it'
'i am good at not thinking about things that i do not want to / think about / but i think about them when i am sleeping'
'being high / makes me anxious and scared / that i will never again have thoughts / without thinking about having thoughts / the tragedy is that flying is sitting in a chair / or is it on a chair / the culture i have is borrowed and unaccommodating'
'kind of want to transfer to a really old university / to study magic'